I was sure by now

That You would have reached down

And wiped our tears away

Stepped in and saved the day

But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls

I barely hear Your whisper through the rain

“I’m with you”

And as You mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm

And I will life my hands

For You are who You are

No matter where I am

Every tear I’ve cried

You hold in Your hand

You never left my side

And though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

I remember when

I stumbled in the wind

You heard my cry

You raised me up again

My strength is almost gone

How can I carry on

If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain

“I’m with you”

And as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise the God who gives

And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills

Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord

The Maker of Heaven and Earth

i keep starting to write something and then backspace it.  All i really want to say is that i need to know Christ better.  I want him to have all of me.  I want to be totally surrounded and i NEED him to be near. 

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I am going to write down an journal entry that i just found in my drawer from this summer.... i am so happy to be out of that hole. 

I feel.... empty.  Numb... Dead to any emotions really.  I know that God is there, but for some reason im shutting him out.  My relationship with my family is not strong.  I worry about everything.  I am terrified of college and my living arangements.  Im scared that Tyler will turn his back on God.  It seems like my list of worries never end.  I feel stuck in this spot that i have been stuck in for the past 4 months.  I hate it yet i cannot work up enough energy to do anything about it.  Thats what it is.  I have NO energy.  I worry that if i dont get on track then what is there for me to look forward to?  I fear God.  I know he is a jealous God and i also know that he is not number one right now.  I have placed myself above him and if things dont change... i will be shaken to nothing and i will have to pick up the pieces and start from the very beginning.  That scares me.  My world has ALWAYS been perfect until now.  I never fought with my family, when i fell it only took me a short time to pick myself back up and become even stronger.  Maybe i was becoming arrogant.  Maybe i started relying on myself to stay strong and not God.

I thought it was bad at that point, but it got so much worse.  God has a funny way of showing me whos God.  I put all my trust in myself for the longest time thinking that i could say no to temptation by myself.  "im molly purvis... ive never taken a sip of alcohol, i never have a problem saying no to sin."  i became big headed and judgemental and then... he broke me.  Broke me down to nothing.... until i felt like nothing, so i would learn to rely on him and to let him control my life.  I am so thankful for that and would not take anything back.  No regrets.... He always meets you where you are.  "Oh how constant how divine"

Kevo and me

Mary and me

Erin, Me, Mandy, Michelle, and Amelia... what a fun night.

Asa and me acting like morons

friday night at the homecoming game... i miss everyone so much.

Buck... wow i miss him like whoa.

at julies.... why do we always feel the need to make dumb faces??

theres more but it keeps saying that i have reached my max something for this month so i guess ill have to post them next month... gah so stupid